What kind of qualities do you look for in a guy?
I never expect a seemingly innocent question like that to elicit a tearful response. It was with such a force I was shocked by my own reaction, and quite embarrassed. Crying over something like that in Masjidil Haram is not exactly what I had set out to do when I got there. It wasn’t her fault, she was only being curious.
Maybe it was due to Eid, that I felt like I can put my guard down after a challenging week. Maybe I was tired. I don’t know why exactly but I do know that it still hurts, even when I thought I’ve made peace with myself. When I thought that all I need to do now is letting go of specific memories.
I guess I need more time.