From my experience, after 16 years of doing this job, I can tell you that in the first year, just take whatever is given to you. Just say “Yes, Sir”.
It is good advice, although sometimes not so easy to follow. Being in an organization this big, people are expected to talk when they see things they deem not quite right, like my current situation. Without understanding, some people may see it as special treatment or an unfair fast track opportunity. Passing judgement is a popular human sport, and I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to escape it.
I understand that it is a challenge I must face and I know that I have to prove that I deserve this chance. There are many people I cannot let down, and at times it scares me to no end. Because I’m weird like that.
It has been a helluva six months full of chance meetings, unexpected appointments and crazy awesome opportunities. I am so afraid I’ll screw up and I am concious of people talking behind my back but those are things out of my control. What I can do is just do my work and pass that swimming test, demmit